September 23, 2004
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September 13, 2004
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Yesterday as I was reading, I was glancing up at the sky and realized how pretty it was. The whisked clouds were formed in such graceful impressions with the most beautiful shades of blue. It was a deep blue that I've never seen before, a kind of blue that made me feel blessed to have seen. It created an ambience of softness that was too deep to see through, too tempting to understand, but not too far to reach. It seemed as if the sky was a huge canvas that some stupendous artist has crafted his most prized creation upon...appearing so heavenly and relaxing. It made me wonder what it feels like to be above this magnificent scene, to be miles and miles ahead of it and look down at its top, to peak through its little crevices and see teeny tiny problematic people with their many wants and needs. I want to experience what it feels like to be on top of the world, to drift from cloud to cloud and not have a care in the world. I want to be a free spirit that goes wherever the wind takes me and enjoy the astounding atmosphere that completely surrounds me. But sadly, I am not at that stage yet. I still need to live a life overfilled with anguish, torment, and disappointments. Yet on the contrary, a life fulfilled with excitement, happiness, and love awaits me in the not too distant future. The good comes with the bad and that is something I cannot escape. I have to take whatever comes to me and deal with it the best I can. But for now, all I can do is stare up at the natural beauty above me that way too many people overlook, a beauty that can't be replicated or replaced, a beauty that is so ever constant that it only awaits a little upward tilt of the head to be appreciated. I can only imagine when will it be my time to experience this amiable aura that is exceptionally brimming with tranquility and serenity.I can only imagine.
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September 04, 2004
People constantly inspire me to attain and achieve what I desire in life. Yet, there are those that can push me down below the limits and manipulate my trust. Some may not mean it and think they are supporting me, but what they don't realize is that they are hurting me more than helping. Always questioning, always interrogating, always on my case..why can't they observe that I'm reliable enough to make my own choices and choose my own battles. I've grown up significantly-physically and emotionally. Apparently, no one cares to notice this fact and still treat me like I embody no state of mind.
Even so, I continue to remain silent and let it be. I've made the choice to get aquainted with my true myself even though nobody else does. Through all the years, I've learned that only I can be my best friend. No one else knows me more, no one else loves me more, no one else cares for me more other than myself. It's nice to know that I have a clear perspective of who I am when compared to the many several individuals who still get caught up in what other people are doing that they totally forget about their own well-being. I can only hope that they find themselves soon...all I can do is simply be grateful that I'm comfortable with myself through all my faults and mistakes.
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